Friday, March 9, 2012

It's not about how many times you fall, but rather how many times you get up.


(Today's Agenda)

I had an anonymous comment on my last post that fits well with this post. It stated:  “… life is a journey of twist and turns that mold who we are; however, it is not the twist and turns which mold us, but rather, how we take and handle the twist and turns thrown at us. It was not until life threw me flat on my face that I truly discovered who I am and what I am. I am a perpetual work-in-progress. And you know what? I am quite all right with progress........” (Thank you anon)
What a great comment! Isn’t that the truth though? A few years ago (seems like yesterday) life threw me for a few loops. I landed flat on my face, was confused, angry, hurt and completely alone. It took me a while to get back up from that wipeout but after a long and understanding conversation with my mom just last weekend, I feel as if I can stand up, dust myself off, and finally live my life! It may be two years later but the point is that I got up. What an amazing weight off the shoulders!
The past few weeks have been a rollercoaster, to say the least, in the classroom. Two weeks ago I began introducing fractions to the kids. This is a completely foreign concept to them and I found it difficult to teach. Math is not a subject that I ever struggled in so I had no idea how to teach such a crucial topic to struggling students. At the same time, my evaluations were beginning. I felt like a crappy teacher all around and student blow-ups only made the issue worse.
However, this week I have had the kids doing a lot of group work and repetition, working with manipulatives and grouping objects. It has made such a difference. The concept seems much easier to grasp for the students now and I feel good about this past week. It’s hard for me to be a good teacher when my confidence is waning.
Otherwise, the weeks have been the same as the previous take over weeks. I have had ample behavior issues in the class but have managed to avoid any major explosions from particular students. It’s exhausting putting out fires all day but you gotta do what you gotta do.
Today my host class and our team teacher’s class took a field trip to Eaglecrest. It’s a ski resort, for those who don’t know, and man was it an amazing experience! I have never been skiing so I was learning right along with the students. At one point I did the Chinese splits and will probably be stuck in bed all day tomorrow because of it. Haha. Luckily, an adorable student came to the rescue. By the end of the day I was feeling pretty confident in my ability, as were the kids. We got in several runs! The hardest part of the day was probably getting off the chair lift. My roommate and I both did fine! We were worried we would attempt to get off and would roll over each other, which could easily have happened and man what a display it would have been for the students behind us. Which reminds me, the second hardest part of the day was trying not to curse in front of the kids! Hahaha At the end of the day we all met in the lodge, returned our gear, and prepared to head back to school, returning with only 10 min left in the day. You know it’s a successful day when 1. Students pass out on the bus and 2. All students made it back alive.
After the end of the day bell rang, I noticed a student seemingly having a blow up. These start with him throwing his head down on the desk and refusing to move. I walked over to the boy and proceeded to ask what was bothering him. No answer. I asked him if something happened on the bus ride. No reply (very common). I moved closer and told him it was time to go and that if he didn’t leave I would have to go get help to remove him (also common). However, when I placed a hand on his back he jumped up, his face red and eyes nearly shut. He had passed out for the last ten minutes of class! So there I was having a conversation with a sleeping boy. Lol. Too funny.
Anyways, I guess the point of this post is that I am feeling confident and successful in my ability to teach. I’m doing great over all, placing applications all throughout Georgia. I also found out that I will be sent to a small town outside of Nome, Alaska for my rural practicum. This is a short week-long visit in a “bush” school where we learn how students in these regions live and attend school. By the way, Nome is where the Iditarod (sled dog) race ends. I’m pretty excited about it!
This weekend will consist of a little school work, a few beers and some socializing (not mixed, of course!)

“Success is falling nine times and getting up ten.”

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